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Yarn, India, Mindfulness and Fine Art

6/4/2016

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During the last few weeks I have had several light bulb moments...  which probably started back before Christmas when I had enquiry from a person in Dubai wanting 2000 hanks of natural dyed yarn.  Without doubt it was an exciting moment - the negotiations started, the quote was given and everyone was keen - apart from me who was hyperventilating at the sheer stress of completing this mad order - I had calculated it would take in the region of 5 months, but still the pressure of dying 50 hanks a day getting them washed, dried and labelled fill me with horror, while the though of a good injection of cash into the business allowed me the thought of "silly not to do it"... so sleepless nights ensued, checking for replies from the client, checking out the price of brewery vats big enough to cope with the quantity, working out the number of burners required, drying facilities that could be made... the list and the stress grew to the point that it did, if I am really honest with myself spoil our Christmas.  As it turned out the money promised from the client never appeared and I was left gratefully off the hook.  The conversation I have been having with myself ever since is the economic viability of natural dyeing, because actually its not economically viable... and even if it was and the order had come through - do I really really want to spend my time dying up yarn 24/7...  not the idillic dream I had signed up for to say the least.  The stress also shocked me, another thing not included in my idyllic dream.  So I was left just after Christmas with the wind knocked out of my sales, my dream shattered... and a little unsure where to tread next.  

Fortunately the India trip to Jaipur comes round very quickly after new years eve, we also had GB selections to get through.... my son Harry had been training really hard to get a place on team... (free style kayaking for all of you new to my stories) - so when the 12th of Feb came round and I found myself on the mini bus in Delhi heading back to my 3rd home Pahar Ganj I was without doubt relieved to not be thinking about In The Wool Shed, and trying to make sense of where I should be going with it all.  When I am in India I get so caught up in my passion for the country, its textiles, the people... it bewitches me.  This was the 3rd workshop - and each year I crave a deeper knowledge and understanding of textiles in India... I always buy books there... to add to my collection - they sit unread from one year to the next in my busy life in the UK.  This year more than any time the need to do something about it was stronger.
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Skip forward a few weeks.... to find myself watching with Harry "Finding Nemo", a wonderful film we had watched together before when Harry was small - and there was my first light bulb moment, "just let go".....   Fear had been setting in recently, taking hold, when you follow your dreams... and things don't work out as planned it can be unsettling, not my first experience of such things in my life, but when we do not know the answers - its easy to get caught up in fear, I noticed more single magpies...  and the spiral of worry gained momentum.  I knew in that moment of the film that "letting go" was exactly what I needed to do - to stop trying to find the answers and just allow it to happen.....  gosh what a wonderful way to live, something I have regularly tried to do - and end up forgetting how to do it when it's most needed...  Trusting in ourselves to know the way forward.... and letting the journey just unfold, the present moment being our only guide.  The characters in Finding Nemo show this so innocently and beautifully, the forgetful Dori knew the way, while the controlling Marlin, father of Nemo - so desperately wanted to know - but wouldn't listen to the sheer madness of Dori and her trust in the currents of life... wonderful wonderful.  when I see a magpie now I see the bubbling sea currents and the excited turtles riding along it, trusting in the universe to take them where they needed to go.

The next lightbulb moment came in Wales during the Easter holidays.  Harry has GCSEs this year  - so the deal was he would spend the morning revising and I would knit or read - and in the afternoon we would walk the beaches - absolute bliss.  The cottage has no internet, no tv, no dishwasher and no micro wave for that matter - its intensely quiet - and I soaked up the peace.  Along with my knitting I took the lovely book Fabric of India I had purchased at the V&A exhibition in November - yet to be looked at.... and I read and read.... delighting in the information provided, returning to my deep love of Indian textiles.  My knitting project was to complete "The Gardner".... and the 2 things started to come together...designing knit wear with an Indian influence..... that is my direction - that is exactly where I need to be.... my energy came back, my excitement oozing...   it just made so much sense to me....  My passion for natural fibres and India coming together in a relationship that requires my fine art sense of play and understanding of the visual arts ...... to take it forward in a new way....  the ideas started to rush forward, plans for projects, workshops.... oooh what a joy.  

It was not long after that I realised - my 3rd lightbulb moment that the link to all of this is a mindful approach.... I have so wanted to incorporate meditation into my work.... and have dabbled along the way - but lacked the confidence go forward with it, but some things need time, and when they are ready - they just easily and comfortably come....here it was coming together.... the moment of letting go - stopping, just being.... it was there, nothing new, just stuff that has been hovering around me - but unable until then to be pieced together.     

And here i am now -the time is perfect - time to really believe in my dream, it was never shattered or lost - it just needed time to become even more what it has always needed to be -  I just didn't believe in myself fully - to really go for what I wanted.... it seemed to much to ask for .... It was that order from Dubai and the disappointment, the stress and relief to really see where I was going, its not mass production I am interested in - its creativity its - natural dyes, India, mindfulness, fine art... its always been there In The Wool Shed.... now its time to get it all out the bag and share.... 
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Ann Battye
10/4/2016 11:10:44 pm

Beautiful and inspiring - as ever. I will shortly be going to Cambodia, a trip I never would have undertaken without the confidence I gained during my time in India with you. It will be a spiritual, textile, meditative trip. You are right about finding Nemo, I think we can look to Dori for a lot of the answers. Turns out even timid me can speak whale :)

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3/12/2019 12:11:23 pm

India is a place where people can enjoy life. I think that it is a country that is filled with enlightened people. I have been to India a number of times now, and I enjoyed every single one of them. I will try to do my best to make a full review of the country in my blog. I think that it is going to take a while, but you will want to read it, I can promise you that.

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    Emma Price founder of In The Wool Shed, fine artist, spinner, natural dyer, weaver, knitter and loves travelling especially India & Wales....  and explores a mindful approach to life. 

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